Now. That's the answer to some of you readers who have been asking me when you're going to get some useful insight into my status in this column. Are you ready? Sitting down? Because I have some news for everyone:
I'm back. Start me this Sunday.
Knowing this got me thinking of a quote I once heard by a British writer named John Galsworthy (Oregon State education, baby!): "A man of action forced into a state of thought is unhappy until he can get out of it." That's deep, right? Well, it also pretty much sums me up over the past several weeks. I am a running back. That is what I love to do, and it was absolutely killing me to just sit there and watch my Rams play without me. But I'm feeling great, and as long as there are no setbacks this week, I'm going to be on the field against the Browns.
Every single one of you who cheered me on and told me to get healthy in the comments section of this column gets a pat on the back from me this week. I really do appreciate all the unselfishness and support you all offered while I was sidelined. In fact, I'll have a lot of you in the back of my mind on the field this week. Not just from a fantasy point of view, but from a fan's point of view.
Regardless of my status, though, we need to pick up a W in the worst way this week. Marc Bulger is back, I am back and there are no excuses for continuing this winless streak. Look, I'm not oblivious; I read the newspapers and the columns, and I saw that people were expecting me to be out until Week 10 so I could heal over the bye week, since this was a "lost season." But, believe me, it's not. We've got nine games left to play, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't going to try, with every ounce of willpower I have, to get us nine wins.
Underneath it all? The fact that I love to play this game. Win or lose, there's nothing better than getting onto that field and just running around and living out a childhood dream. Standing on the sidelines was interesting, don't get me wrong. I got to watch Brian Leonard and a group of guys I consider to be the most talented in the league play this game at its highest level, but I was ready to be back on that field the minute I was forced off.
Luckily, I've been treated by the best medical staff in football, and I'm ready to return and start helping this team. And yours. Hopefully, all my managers out there in fantasy land held on to me (or made shrewd trades to get me) and will ride me to their fantasy championship. I realize I have a lot of running to do to get your teams back to where they need to be.
ESPNers, I can't thank you enough for your continued support. That's why you're the first to know, directly from my lips, that you'll be seeing me suit up against Cleveland this week. I'm back!
So I'll see you all Sunday against the Browns. It feels good to be writing that again. Best of luck to all of you and your fantasy teams, and I hope you all reap the fruits of my return to the field.
Rams running back Steven Jackson is a weekly contributor to ESPN.com Fantasy.