Originally Published: December 16, 2007
What's Pettitte's price for admission?
Andy Pettitte screwed up.
Let's get that out of the way fast. Every player who (pick your favorite action verb) used, or tried, or obtained, or experimented with HGH over the last decade knew it was wrong. Knew it. Knew it was a decision that was as shaky ethically as it was medically. Knew it. Knew it just from what he had to do to get ahold of that HGH in the first place. Whether he had to head on down to the anti-aging clinic, or go see a doctor (or dentist) he'd never seen before, or click on some link he found for buycheapHGHrighthere.com, or call up his favorite strength coach, he had to know that didn't feel right. Because it wasn't. Wasn't legal. Wasn't honorable. Wasn't cool medically. And every player knew that. Every one of them. But We want you to consider the tale of two players. We won't name them. See if you can tell the difference. Player A is a long-time star for a team that has won multiple titles. Great guy. Beloved by fans and teammates alike. Then finds himself connected with an HGH story he can't escape. So he admits it. Admits he bought it. Admits he took it. Admits he did that over a long period of time, during which his team won championships and he was an All-Star. Admits he "sent the wrong message" to kids and to the public. Admits he's "very, very embarrassed."[+] Enlarge

Chris McGrath/Getty ImagesAndy Pettitte on using HGH in 2002: "I wasn't looking for an edge. I was looking to heal."
But as you're inflicting that price on Pettitte, think of Rodney Harrison. And if your only reaction to his crime was, "How does this affect my fantasy team?" you have some confessing to do yourself -- about the never-ending double standard applied to baseball and football on this issue.
We don't want to belabor that one, though, because it leads us to a bigger issue: Is what either of the two athletes did "cheating"? This is a question that deserves a thorough nationwide debate one of these days. Doesn't it? If an already-great player decides his goal in life is to break the biggest record in sports, and to do that he's willing to inject or ingest just about any substance on the market, that feels like cheating. But what about all those players -- in all sports -- who used HGH for other reasons? What do we do about them? It's getting more and more obvious to those who pay attention that HGH developed a reputation among athletes as some kind of miracle quick-healing potion. Do a little research. That theme comes up over and over. We hear medical authorities tell us, just about daily, that that's a myth. But it's a myth that became part of the sporting culture. So clearly, it was that panicky desire to heal faster, to "get back on the field," that fueled the HGH use of hundreds of athletes. "I'm willing to say that in the case of just about every guy who used HGH," one longtime baseball man told us recently, "it can almost always be traced to some kind of injury." So let's ask you again: Is that "cheating"? Discuss. Maybe yes. Maybe no. We all have some thinking to do to answer that question. But whether it was or it wasn't -- in Andy Pettitte's case, in Rodney Harrison's case, in the case of anyone who looked up the phone number of the nearest anti-aging clinic -- it was still wrong. Morally wrong. Legally wrong. Dead wrong. And Andy Pettitte knew it. Knew it when he did it. Knew it when he stopped doing it. Knew it when he owned up this weekend. So he'll deserve his inevitable trip to principal Selig's office. He'll deserve whatever boos he hears on Opening Day, and on every road trip for the rest of his life. He'll deserve whatever price he has to pay for this. But that doesn't mean we can't put his offense in perspective, judged against the more heinous and selfish offenses of others, judged against the context of his career. Sorry, we're just tired of the ridiculous oversimplification of a complicated issue. It never stops. People just can't wait to pin easy talk-show labels on every one of these stories. But look a little closer the next time you come up for air. They don't all fit. So yeah, Andy Pettitte screwed up. That's where we started. That's where we'll finish. But does he deserve more wrath than Rodney Harrison? Why? Does he deserve to have his photo plastered all over the back page of a tabloid, with the photos of a bunch of other members of the All-Mitchell Report Team, under the giant headline: "CHEATERS?" We're still sorting that one out. But we've already sorted this out: All crimes in the courthouse are not created equal. And neither are all crimes in the Mitchell report. Jayson Stark is a senior writer for ESPN.com. His new book, "The Stark Truth: The Most Overrated and Underrated Players in Baseball History," has been published by Triumph Books and is available in bookstores. Click here to order a copy.


