Journal No. 6: An ode to Mark Pope
People love to inquire of my post-basketball intentions.
Perhaps more than I, my interrogators know how quickly my life can change. It is rare that a professional athlete plays past the age of 40; more likely, those of us lucky enough to be given the opportunity to whore ourselves out to the highest bidder will produce careers much shorter.
I constantly maintain that I really have no idea (a) what I will do when my days of being a sports strumpet are over and, more important, (b) when said eventuality will occur.
I would wager that few athletes truly choose when they will end their respective careers. When the dust and Ben-Gay clears, we are no different than the weekend warrior who, forgetting that his muscles are no longer trained for stretching a double into a triple, blows an Achilles trying to slide into third. We are competitive and stubborn, two qualities helpful in our quest to become at least better than average, but are also characteristics which usually do not lead to a peaceful retirement at the top of one's game.
I read recently that Mark Pope, a longtime professional basketball player, most recently for Denver, was released at the end of training camp with the Nuggets. In an interview, Pope mentioned that he plans to enter medical school in the fall and was thankful for the opportunities basketball had afforded him. He seemed neither embittered nor broken by the fact that his playing days might soon be coming to an end.
It would seem easy to mock Pope's career. He has not been a star since his playing days at Kentucky ended. His own coach once said, "He's not a great player, but he's a guy that helps your team exist." High praise.
But, let us not forget that, regardless of his exact standing within his peer group, it could easily be said that Pope is among the best 1,000 basketball players in the world.
The math is not difficult. There are approximately 450 players in the NBA per year. Pope has proven that he is certainly a qualified NBA player. Even if we allow that there are somehow another 500 players in the world as good, scattered as they might be in remote outposts of European basketball or Tibetan mountainsides, we would still be safe in our conclusion.
Think about that for a second. There are, give or take, six billion humans on the Earth. How many people will ever exist among the top .0000167 percent of the world's population ... at anything? In fact, it is a sobering thought. How does one walk away from a field at which he is that able?
I admire Pope's decision immensely. He must be an enlightened human being (and I say that without a lick of sarcasm).
Obviously, by writing about him, I am using his as a corollary to my own life. If I were a good writer, I would have somehow disguised my intentions and used symbolism or sleight of hand to conceal that I was actually selfishly discussing my own life yet again. But I'm not. We all live with my ineptitude, and then we move on. I daresay that Pope has had, as of now, a more successful career than I. Will I, at some point, realize that I have used the game of basketball for all I could hope and choose to move on? I have my doubts.
As of two years ago, I assumed that the end of my basketball career would come either at the hands of a catastrophic knee injury or because of some girl I might meet along the way. I have realized that there are few injuries from which one cannot be rehabilitated (see also: kidney and spleen rearrangement -- if that wasn't enough to catch my attention, I don't know what would be). I have also come to discover that I am not quite the stable being I would like to be. Convincing someone that I am willing to be coerced into changing my life for her might not be in the cards just yet.
In a way, each year I play makes it more unlikely that the next year will be the last. (As long as that year does not involve a trip to Russia or the emergency room. Those years tend to hasten the retirement process.) We professional basketball players are like aging strippers. We tell ourselves that we will do it until we have set aside a few extra dollars for the unknown future but, before we realize what has happened, we are addicted to the cheers and the fast-paced life.
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I am no different. It is easy for me to speak conceptually about the end of my, or Mark Pope's, career but, at a basic level, I am nothing but a 27-year-old male who, while obviously not an NBA All-Star, is a very decent basketball player and probably is not equipped to yet let it go.
As I get older, I do begin to realize what drives me -- at least with regard to basketball.
(Here's me as a philosopher. Dangerous water ahead.)
It's sex. I love groupies. What can I say?
Not really, although I do think that could be a valid motivation ... for a caveman.
Actually, and I realize just how hokey and lame this will sound, but improvement keeps me going.
When my basketball career is over, no one around me is going to remember whether I played one, three or eight years in the NBA, or if I averaged six points or 26 points for a team in Guatemala, or even whether I was any good or not. But I will. More importantly, I will know, when I am lying on my deathbed, whether I gave up too soon. Right now, I can tell that I can get better -- and that's what drives me. I know that I have not reached my threshold of ability, and it haunts me to some degree.
My career could be cut short by a car accident, the perfect girl or a freak run-in with my garbage disposal. But if it doesn't, then I'll keep playing until I realize that I can't get any better. That could happen next month, next year or next decade -- I don't know. I just hope that when it does, I can be as decisive as Mark Pope and move on with a clear conscience.
Paul Shirley has played for 11 pro basketball teams, including three NBA teams -- the Chicago Bulls, the Atlanta Hawks and the Phoenix Suns. His journal will appear regularly at ESPN.com. To e-mail Paul, click here.
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When not writing this journal, searching for original music, being mistaken for a Heisman winner, playing hoops in the U.S. and Europe, working on his sitcom, finishing his book, getting to know the women of the world, or just pondering his fate, Paul Shirley has been trying to get back into the NBA.
Here's his journey:
56. Taking that shot
55. Do I still want to keep my jersey?
54. Mustache men and buzzer beaters
53. Pain with no gain
52. I'm so happy when team wins without me
51. What bugs me when I'm trying to sleep
50. How I spent summer camp
49. Surprise surgery in Spain
48. Hello, Spanish beauties
47. Game of pain in Spain
46. The dirtiest player ever
45. The thrill of victory
44. Back in the game in Spain
43. I had a bawl
42. My agent's new book
41. My Spanish misadventure
40. "My So-Called Career" on hold
SUMMER LEAGUE 2006
39. Time of the sign
38. Vegas soul searching
37. Injury risk, reward
36. My four-point stance
35. I'm the least-cool camper
34. Summer ball in Vegas
33. Show got the business
32. My show gets rejected
31. Hoops humor
30. TV and life are funny
29. My show's not "Alf"
28. I'm not Matt Leinart
27. The new Paul Shirley is ...
26. Who's trying to play me?
25. I'm too cool to act
24. Acting like an 8-year-old
23. Taking acting lessons
22. Step into my office
21. Our show's a go
20. Hatching a TV show idea
19. I'm not easy to love
18. My shot of "Glory"
MY DAYS IN THE ABA
17. Take this job and...
16. Playing Master P
15. Tacoma aroma
14. Bounced by 8th graders
13. Getting in the game
12. I'm going coastal
GETTING READY FOR ACTION
11. Tim Floyd, my old coach
10. Working out hard
9. Vladivostok? Why not?
8. Freedom of expression
7. Holiday hoops stink
6. Ode to Mark Pope
5. As the Bird soars
4. Height of absurdity
3. A higher hand-check
2. Half a mil? Sign me!
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