Chargers blow good Boston outing

In his latest diary entry, Drayton Florence reflects on heading to the bye week without a win.

Updated: October 7, 2003, 2:30 PM ET
By Drayton Florence | Special to ESPN.com

Editor's note: Defensive back Drayton Florence, taken in the second round of this year's NFL draft by the San Diego Chargers, will chronicle his rookie experiences in a weekly diary for ESPN.com.

Drayton Florence
Florence
Last week, we wasted a huge game by our star running back LaDainian Tomlinson. This past Sunday, David Boston gave us an awesome performance and we couldn't get a win against Jacksonville.

David hauled in 14 passes for 181 yards and scored two touchdowns. He played great, but I wasn't surprised because he's a big-time player and a great wide receiver. Drew Brees also played well for us, but unfortunately we couldn't get the win going into our bye week.

It was a long plane ride home for us. We don't want to be without a win, but the unfortunate reality of the situation is that we're 0-5. The tough thing is that this week we've got a bye. So we're stuck for another week being winless and there's nothing we can do about it because we don't have a game. The only thing we can do is work hard in practice and continue to improve.

The stigma of losing five games is hovering over us and it's frustrating. We've only got ourselves to blame and we know we have got to play better and get things turned in the right direction. We know we've got enough talent to win games and there's no excuse for us to be 0-5. We've played hard, but right now we're struggling to finish games.

Our starting fullback Lorenzo Neal said something after the game that really sunk in. Lorenzo told reporters that we've used up all of our hall passes for the season and we've got to play with pride and heart because nobody's going to feel sorry for us. I agree with everything Lorenzo said.

Everybody -- players, coaches and front office staff -- associated with our football team still believes we can be a good football team. I've heard stories about teams quitting when they got off to a bad start. There are no quitters on this team. There's been no finger pointing. We haven't quit and won't quit. We all know we can play better. To put it simply, we have to quit making mistakes and play smarter.

As a result of having the bye this week, our practice schedule is a little different. We were off on Monday and will practice on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Then we get the weekend off.

Personally, I haven't even thought about what I'm going to do with a weekend away from football. I'm more concerned with getting better as a player and helping the team win. I know there are things I need to work on and improve. Just like the previous weeks, I'm going to work hard in practice and take what I learn there and go play hard in the games.

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