In an interview that will appear in Esquire early next month,
Williams also said he regrets not talking with Miami coach Dave
Wannstedt before he abruptly retired before the season.
"I should have been man enough to have a conversation with Dave
before all this happened," Williams said. "But I didn't. I got
scared, and I just told him I was retiring. It just came out."
When reached by the magazine, Williams was at a retreat near
Brisbane, Australia, before his return to Los Angeles last week.
According to Esquire, he was living in a $7-a-day campsite and had
lost 20 pounds on a vegetarian diet.
Earlier this week, Williams' agent, Leigh Steinberg, said his
client had asked the NFL how soon he could return to play. The
Dolphins are off to an 0-4 start without the 2002 rushing champion.
Williams has acknowledged repeated violations of the NFL drug
program. The Dolphins say their understanding is he must serve a
suspension for the rest of this season if he tries to return. The
NFL has declined to comment.
By returning to the Dolphins, Williams could avoid paying $8.6
million for breach of contract.