Disappointing loss to Patriots

Jonathan Vilma talks about the disappointment of losing to the Patriots when the Jets could have secured a playoff spot.

Updated: December 28, 2004, 11:15 AM ET
By Jonathan Vilma | Special to ESPN.com

Vilma diary
Editor's note: Linebacker Jonathan Vilma, selected in the first round of the NFL draft by the New York Jets, will chronicle his rookie experiences in a weekly diary for ESPN.com. This is No. 18 and for the previous diaries, look below.

  • Diary No. 17: Playoff bound?
  • Diary No. 16: Ready for the Bus?
  • Diary No. 15: Back to winning
  • Diary No. 14: Reed leads Ravens
  • Diary No. 13: Playing McGahee
  • Diary No. 12: MNF spotlight
  • Diary No. 11: First loss
  • Diary No. 10: Coming from behind
  • Diary No. 9: Happy homecoming
  • Diary No. 8: Heading home
  • Diary No. 7: Road trip
  • Diary No. 6: First win
  • Diary No. 5: City Championship
  • Diary No. 4: Playing Peyton
  • Diary No. 3: Finally on the field
  • Diary No. 2: Short week of camp
  • Diary No. 1: Ready for camp
  • Well fans, it's another big game and another big loss. Honestly, I've never been on a team where we didn't win the big games. I was so used to expecting to win and getting the job done and for some reason, it's not happening this season.

    You could imagine my disappointment when someone tells you all you have to do is win one game and you're in the playoffs and we come out and play as if we had nothing to play for.

    Don't get me wrong, I still think we have a very good team and a strong nucleus, but its so frustrating to lose. I HATE LOSING!

    The only good thing that happened to us is that we have next week. We're still in control of our destiny and we always show up after tough losses so I'm not worried about that.

    I know the Rams are in the playoff hunt, so they're going to come out fighting. But right now it's not even about them, it's about us and what we have to do. We should've taken that approach all season instead of deciding which games were big and which were not. All games are big games, and we need to play that way especially now. Our "one and done" starts a week early.

    I didn't hear too much about the St. Louis all season. Either the Rams have been average, or under the radar all season. I know they have tons of talent on the offensive side of the ball, so it will be another challenge for us defensively. I want to put it in our hands because if they don't score, we win bottom line.

    The saga continues until next week ...